The Ramblings of a Demented Mind

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 03:54:32 GMT

My life has changed so much since I started this. I've gone through 1, 2, 3... 3 serious/semi serious boyfriends, any number of flings, drugs and parties, football fields' worth of friends; I've had my heart broken and broken hearts; I've been cynical and angry and happy and hopeful; and where am I now? I have no clue.

I am not the same person I was yesterday and tomorrow I will not be the person I am today.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 18:30:28 GMT

JITTERBUG!

OH my god I need a CHANGE!

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 23:12:42 GMT

I am officially friendless, with one tiny exception. I don't even talk to anyone else anymore. Most have seem to forgotten, and the ones that haven't probably wouldn't want to talk to me right now anyway.

It is what I was always afraid of... and yet, now that it's here, it doesn't seem as bad as all that. At least not any worse than the worst I've been. But who knows? There's always a tomorrow.

Something for you to read!

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 05:39:06 GMT

'Twere but the bee, his face stuffed in the pie and so muffled that you could not hear his singing, and all for the better as he wanted you dead just as much as the doorknob!

For the sake of

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 04:38:16 GMT

Bizounce

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 01:59:59 GMT

Insanity is the most difficult job imaginable. You people don't even know what it takes to keep these things up!

Oh?

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 17:02:35 GMT

The lies that we lead...

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 05:53:53 GMT

BOOKS!

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 09:57:06 GMT

My life is almost over.

Me

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 21:41:43 GMT

My body aches all the time. I need to get my back fixed. Or something.

I'm eternally bored with everything, but at the same time I'm completely losing my mind from thinking far too much. It hurts a bit. And I know I hurt other people with it. But you know.

So anyway. This is as close to a real post as I'm going to get. I'm back in school. Back at work. I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying. Reading all the time. None of it seems to be enough. I wonder when I'll find my salvation. I'm thinking of turning to Bokononism for help. You know. I was probably always a Bokononist.

And you know what that means, don't you?

Busy, busy, busy.

You should call me.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 18:05:29 GMT

I'm not what's missing from your life now.

I'm really confused. Genuinely. I might make a real post some day. Maybe.

Sometimes

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:35:31 GMT

Things get a little silly. But that's a good thing, right?

Change

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 23:45:14 GMT

In hair, in life... if you didn't go to my party, you sure missed a great one.

Life's a bitch

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 19:47:48 GMT

And then you die,
so fuck this world,
let's all get high.

You Know

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 00:31:17 GMT

I still read this.

And I do miss all of you. Even if things look a little purple sometimes.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 13:26:59 GMT

And in the deafness of my world, the silence broke.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 12:46:25 GMT

Two more days, two more days, two more days.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:11:26 GMT

Let's just mourn a moment, shall we?

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 17:39:40 GMT

Absolutely out of control. I can't even begin to explain it.

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 02:19:10 GMT

I just want one person to tell me that they miss me and that they're sorry they haven't been keeping in touch, but really they think about me every now and again.

I know it doesn't matter. And I know I'm different for all these reasons and I have all of these new outlooks on life, but I still want this. Really, I do.

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 02:20:38 GMT

I am an idiot, apparently. Who knew?

Para Kenny

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 20:23:32 GMT

Happy birthday, Kendelah.

Does it feel good being an adult?

I hope you spend the weekend getting tanked... I know that's what I'm doing.

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 22:08:02 GMT

Car has been demolished.

Fuck my life.

We Are

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 20:10:28 GMT

So closed to being something we want.

Less than a week and I hope to god something changes soon.

You know what I want from you.

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 03:05:16 GMT

I'm just so terribly sorry. I really am. To anyone I've forgotten. It's really awful being forgotten, I know, and I never meant it. Though nobody ever does.